SALE: Exposed by Bey Deckard

May 27-29 ONLY – Exposed on sale for .99 (US/UK)
Young rock star meets older fetish photographer—can they make it work?
“5 stars. A May/December story with a side of daddy kink that will make your heart melt.” —The Blogger Girls

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“This is erotic fiction of the highest calibre. Bey Deckard is a brilliant writer in my opinion. His imagination is incredible and his stories original and intelligently told. I absolutely loved every single one of his previous books, but Exposed has taken Bey Deckard to another level and this is, in my opinion, his best work to date. Fantastic and enthralling and captivating and arousing from the first word to the last.” —Books Laid Bare Boys

“I absolutely loved every moment of this story. It grabbed me from the get-go and I didn’t want to put it down. Sweet and kinky (with an age gap to boot!) is a win-win for me and Bey Deckard balanced it perfectly here.” —Sinfully Gay Romance Book Reviews

“By far the best daddy kink book I’ve read!”
“The chemistry between Greg and Emyr is instant and amazing. I was so into them as individuals and as a couple and all that comes with that. The sweet and sexy kink, the hurt/comfort, the Daddy/good boy and just everything. I truly have no idea what I am saying or how to properly review this because it was so much and I gorged hard core on this book.”
“Overall, a great read that I’m happy to add to my favorites of 2017 list.” —Boy Meets Boy Reviews

“Exposed is a wonderful May/December story with a side of Daddy kink that will make your heart melt.” —The Blogger Girls

“I knew this would be an amazing book because I love all of this authors work, what I didn’t expect was to fall in love with these characters so completely! Bey really knows how to draw you into a story like you are living it with the characters!” —Bike Book Reviews

“Exposed is actually quite a gentle love story with a lot of hidden extras thrown in – as you would expect from Bey […] I would highly recommend Exposed.” —Love Bytes Reviews

“What a phenomenal Daddy kink story this is.” —OJ He Say!

Moonlit Dalliance

“I love you.” A whispered confession.

“What? You don’t know me.” I looked over at him, just a dark shape walking down the wooded path next to me. Tonight, the moon’s face peeped out only long enough to dapple the most obtrusive of leaves before demurely retreating behind her tattered veils.

“I think I fell in love with you just now,” he replied. “I’m in love with the spaces between your words, the sound of your shoes on gravel, the hesitation in your voice… and I love the way our strides match, the way you push aside the branches for me, the smell of the night air on your skin.”

“Hm.” I smiled, shaking my head, and I found I wasn’t put off by his proclamations, odd as they were. “What about here?”

As he stared off to the side, his silhouette was limned in passing by the bashful moon. “Are we far enough from the road?”

“I believe so.”

We left the path, finding a space between the trees, and for a few breaths neither of us moved. Then, he stepped closer, dropping to his knees in the cushion of fallen leaves. With nimble fingers he unbuttoned my trousers and I reached out to cup the back of his neck. This would be delicious—I could already feel it.

After placing a lingering kiss on my swollen crown, hand clasped tight around my root, he looked up at me. At that moment, the moon decided to shed her modesty and stepped out naked into the night, bathing the young man’s face in silver. There were tears in his eyes.

“Tell me you love me,” he whispered, breath feathering my sensitive skin.

Such foolishness… This is not what I was paying for. However, as a tear broke free and slid down his face, I felt something give inside of me.

“I love you,” I murmured, thumbing the wetness from his cheek with a gentle smile. And, at that moment, for just an instant, I believed my words with all my heart.

Harper Miller interviews Bey Deckard

Want to know a little more about me? I was interviewed by the lovely Harper Miller and damn does she ask tough questions:

HM: I always find author interviews kind of boring. We only get to see one side of an author, the polite side. If you had an evil doppelganger, what detail would they enjoy revealing about you to the public that people would find surprising and possibly questionable?

BD: I do have a doppelganger but he’s nice. He buys me cool t-shirts and DVDs and recently signed me up for classes at a film school. But there was that time he booked a trip to Cuba that I had to cancel because… what the hell, dude?

An evil doppelganger would have a lot of material to work with, I’m afraid. Hm… how about this? I was a thief and a total juvenile delinquent. 

Read the whole interview here

Max – On Sale Now!

Do you like twisted, sordid stories full of manipulation and depravity?

Max is on sale at Amazon US for $0.99 / Amazon UK for £0.99 until May 12, 2017.

And the best part? Get Max for less than a buck and tack on the Audiobook narrated by Nick J Russo for just $1.99

Folks who dislike unhealthy relationships, are sensitive to consent ambiguity, or have eurotophobia should take a big step back from this story.

It’s dark… ish and full of mindfuckery.

Substance abuse, pornography, violence, cheating, unprofessional behaviour, criminal intent, abuse… and good lord, the lies.

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Baal’s Heart audiobooks – sample & update

For everyone enjoying the audiobooks, I’ve sent over the manuscripts of both Fated and Careened to Michael Ferraiuolo and, barring any setbacks, they should be available late July/early August. Then, I’m planning on robbing a bank, because I want him to narrate Kestrel’s Talon ;)

Also, I’ve had a few messages from readers wanting more of a sample than what is available at Audible. So here is the entirety of chapter 8 of Caged: Love and Treachery on the High Seas. If you haven’t read it, it might not make a whole lot of sense… I don’t think it’s much of a spoiler though. Listen at your own discretion (The sample is NSFW) – Chapter 8: Nelson’s Folly

 

Sacrificed: Now Available in Audio

Did you love Michael Ferraiuolo’s narration of Caged? Want the next one?

Out now:

Reunited once more, the crew of Baal’s Heart must make the long and treacherous journey south to the towering spires of the Devil’s Isles. The path through the mountain range is fraught with peril; mayhem and tragedy plague the pirate ship, but what the men find beyond the spires is the most shocking of all.

In this sequel to the acclaimed Caged, the pirates are dragged into a dangerous new world by Captain Baltsaros’s all-consuming obsession. In the midst of terror and chaos, Jon learns that the captain and first mate have been keeping secrets from him. But will the truth tear them apart?

Audible review:
What about Michael Ferraiuolo’s performance did you like?
In a word: incredible. His ability to switch seamlessly between and among all the characters’ voices is truly awesome. This is far more than just a “reading”… it is performance art.

Michael Ferraiuolo, a man of many voices

Today, I’d like to welcome the very talented Michael Ferraiuolo to my blog. Michael took on Caged: Love and Treachery on the High Seas and tackled the myriad accents of the cast with seeming ease… the result is absolutely incredible (and for those who’ve heard it… wait until you hear Sacrificed!).

Howdy, Michael. Welcome to my blog. Why don’t you tell us a little about yourself?

I’m a native New Yorker with an overabundant love of reading. Luckily I was able to take a traditionally leisurely pastime and make a career out of it. I also write music for film and tv…and the occasional audiobook.

How did you get into audiobook narration?

My career began in music, but before that I was student of theater who always had a knack for accents and voices. As a studio owner in NYC I was able to meet people from different parts of the audio recording world. One day, I met a gentleman whose career was in audiobook production. One conversation with him planted the seed in my mind. After a few twists, turns, and rocky attempts I found myself in Audible Studios as a fully fledged narrator.

What is your favourite part of doing narration?

There are two aspects of the job tied for first place. I love finding character voices. When you’re given a great character that can stand out with an interesting accent or pattern of speech its easy to have a great deal of fun. The other part of this work that I truly enjoy is when an author is able to tell me that a character has come to life just the way they heard them in their mind. There’s a real satisfaction in helping people bring their characters and worlds to life.

The hardest part?

Often the same thing as my favorite part! Voices can be just as much a challenge as they are fun. If there’s a manuscript with dozens of characters it can be difficult to truly differentiate between them all.

Favourite genre (or subgenre) of books to narrate?

I try not to discriminate. Art is art and I’m proud to be a part of any project I take on. I’m a little quicker to accept fantasy or sci-fi books though.

Are you reading anything right now?

Always! Aside from the books I read for work I tend to read one or two for pleasure simultaneously. I’m currently reading the second Erevis Cale trilogy by Paul S. Kemp. Sadly, the audiobooks have already been made…a missed opportunity!

What are your top 5 books of all time (any genre)?

I don’t feel qualified enough to answer that one! Can I cop out and list some of my favorite writers? If so, I’d have to say…in no order.

Tolkien
Shakespeare
Pablo Neruda
Bill Bryson
Glen Cook
Charles C Mann
Bey Deckard

Those are some great names to be included with… grins Sheesh :)

I’d like to say thank you Bey for your literary contributions and I would encourage everyone to share their enthusiasm for your work and other great literature!

Thank very much, Michael and thank you for stopping by!

Interested in having Michael narrate? Contact him through http://www.ironworkstudios.com/

Want to win an audible copy of Caged: Love and Treachery on the High Seas or Sacrificed: Heart Beyond the Spires (coming any day now)?

Just comment below with either your favourite audiobook or a book you would love to hear made into audio (any author or genre). I’ll pick two winners on Wednesday April 26th

What’s in a Name?

One of my favourite parts about writing is naming my characters.

Baltsaros is the Greek version of Balthazar but has its roots in Assyrian—the name means “Baal protect the king”. Baal is associated with the god Hadad (god of storm and fertility) who was decreed a false god and where the Christians picked up the name “Beelzebub”. So… it’s a reference to the captain’s inner devil, his primal sexuality, as well as his obsessive self-interest (Baltsaros protects Baltsaros… at least at the start )
(Side note: His close friends and relatives call him “Saros”, which is a nod to one of my favourite movie villains, Sarris from Galaxy Quest.)

Ah’Puch for a false Mayan “death god”. Katherine… or Kat because I wanted Jon, the wolf pup, to be surrounded by cats (Baltsaros’s black lion; Tom, the captain’s tomcat).

Doug the blacksmith was because fantasy names get tedious.

Byron Anders Danielsen and Michael Ashur Nassar… when you put their names together, it really underlines what Better the Devil You Know is about.

Kestrel and Talon made for a good pair and a title of a book, and Grim who wasn’t so Grim at all.

Gregory Faraday (a nod to my own Irish roots); Emyr Morgan Hughes because it’s a good Welsh name. Stuart Leandro, inspired by the cover model; Timothy Leblanc for the Montreal prevalence of English/French name pairs; James Talbot sounds stuffy and upper-class paired with Rudie Brauer, a lower-class, rural name for his humble beginnings.

Reginald Wilkes and Andrew Murphy… Sarge and Murphy. Just good, solid names.

Then there’s alllll the side characters that I get to name after friends, family, or just names I’ve made up that sound good. Baal’s Heart IV is still a ways out, but I think you’ll like the names of the new folks the pirates will team up with. :D

And, hopefully soon, in Midnight in Montreal you’ll meet Royal, Damascène, Adélard, and Ozéas and in Charlie, you’ll meet Charles Egerton, Alexander Montgomery, and Cutty Turner.

Writer & Reader Expectations and Some Ramblings About Romance

It’s funny, when I set out to write Exposed I was worried about a few things. One, that I would weird people out by using a great Welsh word as a safeword. Two, that my usual readers would find it too lighthearted, compared to my usual stuff. Three, that Emyr calling Greg “Daddy” would bother people. That’s what I expected…. and then the unexpected happened: it never once occurred to me that I’d be reading reviews with the words “BDSM”, “Dom”, or “sub” in them. What’s up with that? Did I market the book wrong? I never tagged it as BDSM, never mentioned any kind of D/s relationship, said that it was a little kinky, and told folks it was just a cute love story. What happened?

Just reader expectations, I believe, and ones that I couldn’t predict because I don’t know what they are. I was just saying to a friend that I have a distinct disadvantage when it comes to writing books that are included in a genre I didn’t even know existed until after I published my first book.

The B/l (or Daddy/lg or Daddy/lb) relationships I’ve witnessed in my life were just sweet, loving, and devoted… really nurturing things (with some really silly play …and, yes, occasional spanking thrown in for good measure) and I set out to capture that lovely fondness I’ve admired so much. (And I often mentally hug Greg and Emyr for really getting there!)

But, there were reader expectations with the words “Daddy kink”, (something I tagged it for just as a warning) that I did not know about. And… now I know (and knowing is half the battle! GI Joe... ahem sorry, I’m on cold meds)

So, anyway, next book I write, I’ll see if I can word the blurb a little more clearly to reflect what the book is actually about (or maybe not about?)

Which brings me to Romance in general…

Folks reading Caged keep saying “this isn’t really a Romance” to which I sit there, scratching my head, wondering where they got the idea that it was a Romance. It has romantic elements, for sure. Life does in general, doesn’t it? But Caged? A Romance? Max? A Romance? I don’t even know if Exposed is a Romance. I keep squinting at definitions and wondering what this whole Romance thing is about (disclaimer: I’m aromantic1). It feels far more nebulous a genre than what I read: Has robots? Sci-fi. Has dragons? Fantasy. Has robot dragons? Sci-fi/fantasy. thumbs up

With Romance, well… the requirements seem to depend on who you talk to.

I did read two books that are considered Romance when I was younger. One was called Sea Star: Private Life of Anne Bonny which was pretty rapey if I recall, and the other one was about um… the wild west? I think? Maybe about a doomed love triangle? Also rapey. So, my young adolescent self drew the conclusion that “Romance Novels” equated “rapey”. However, another thing they both had in common was a lot more plot circling around love and sex than I had ever previously read before.

Hey, all my books have plots that focus primarily on the relationship between the protagonists. So… Romance?

And… Novelist Walter Scott defined the literary fiction form of romance as “a fictitious narrative in prose or verse; the interest of which turns upon marvellous and uncommon incidents.” 2

My characters certainly encounter uncommon incidents. So… Romance?

Also from Wikipedia:

According to the Romance Writers of America, the main plot of a romance novel must revolve about the two people as they develop romantic love for each other and work to build a relationship. Both the conflict and the climax of the novel should be directly related to that core theme of developing a romantic relationship, although the novel can also contain subplots that do not specifically relate to the main characters’ romantic love.

Furthermore, a romance novel must have an “emotionally satisfying and optimistic ending.” Some romance novel authors and readers believe the genre has additional restrictions, from plot considerations (such as the protagonists’ meeting early on in the story), to avoiding themes (such as adultery). Other disagreements have centered on the firm requirement for a happy ending; some readers admit stories without a happy ending, if the focus of the story is on the romantic love between the two main characters (e.g., Romeo and Juliet). While the majority of romance novels meet the stricter criteria, there are also many books widely considered to be romance novels that deviate from these rules. Therefore, the general definition, as embraced by the RWA and publishers, includes only the focus on a developing romantic relationship and an optimistic ending.

All of my books, including Devil (if you look at it the way I do), focus on the relationships of the MCs and have HFN/HEAs…. So… Romance?

I think, maybe, in the end, that my books are Romance books, but only to folks who don’t have too rigid expectations. When it comes to meeting more stringent do’s/don’ts and customary story development… I will definitely fall short, because I just don’t know what those expectations are. But that’s a-ok! Despite the fact that I write and will continue to write entirely for myself, plenty of other people do enjoy my books, and that is absolutely amazing.

And… for those of you who have actually made it this far in my ramblings, you get a special something because I’m in a great mood today :)


1I’m the kind of aromantic who’d actually like to feel deeply about someone, hence my exploration of love in my books. Heh, it’s like I’m finding love through writing :)

2 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Romance_novel

Making a Movie with Brad Vance – A Little Too Broken

A chance to help make a LGBT movie come to life? Sign me the hell up! And guess what? You can help too. Please welcome Brad Vance to my little corner of the web and see how you can play a part in taking A Little Too Broken to the big screen.

Thanks to Bey for letting me take over his blog today! I want to talk about the development process I went through as I turned my novel A Little Too Broken into a screenplay. I’ve got my first draft done, and I’m doing a Kickstarter to help me pay for “development expenses,” including script hosting on sites that can get it industry attention, getting paid evaluations from Hollywood pros, and hopefully going to LA in June for Scriptfest/Pitchfest, where I can meet other screenwriters and learn how to sell my script to Hollywood! You can contribute here.

How did it all begin? I started taking acting classes last fall, almost by accident. I was slothing on my couch, wishing “someone” would make a movie out of one of my books. I’ve always known Broken was the perfect property – it’s got a small cast, few locations, oh and puppies! How can you lose?

Then some voice inside me shouted, “Shut the fuck up! Stop talking about If Only and see what you can do to make it happen!” So I started googling for Reno filmmakers, and while I didn’t find a film studio, I found a web page for a short film festival, and saw that it was partly sponsored by a local acting school, Take 2 Performers Studio. I thought, well, if nothing else, maybe I should see about acting classes to improve my audiobook performance skills.

Turns out that Take 2 is a real feeder to Hollywood, that many of the young actors taking classes there work in LA part time, doing roles on McGyver and Bones and Nike and Vans commercials. It was the real deal!

And not only did I get bit by the acting bug, but I started writing short scenes for the actors, which you can find here on my blog (as well as the Broken script). Their response was enthusiastic, and it gave me the courage to take on an entire screenplay.

I read copiously – other screenplays, the how to books (and I learned which “how to” books I should ignore) the Reddit screenwriting subreddit, the Black List blog, and more. I learned how to do it “their way,” that is, the way you write a screenplay that might actually get sold, and made into a movie.

That is not to say, write to the beats, write by numbers, have X happen on page Y (though there are definitely books that teach that). But it is to say, don’t editorialize in your Action lines, don’t overuse parentheticals (the acting directions like “rolls eyes” or “wryly” to dictate tone). I even learned that parentheticals are called “wrylies” because of the overuse of that word! Which, I’m proud to say, I’d only used once, and immediately deleted. Let the characters and the story do the talking, not you.

Which is hard for a novelist! Especially one like me who’s always been criticized by some for my Balzacian tendency to launch into expository fulminations. But I did rein it in.

The thing that startled me the most was how much had to change between the novel and the screenplay. There was stuff I had to change that made the script better, maybe even made the story better than it was in the novel.

Obviously, I had to do something about all the sex! The novel readers wanted lots of it, and they got it. But I wanted an R rated script, which of course meant removing most of the hot sexin’ from the novel. It’s going to be hard enough selling LGBT content to anyone outside of the “niche market” studios who make those films exclusively, without adding the softcore obstacle to it.

But that’s okay. What’s left now is what’s integral – Jamie masturbating (chest up!) in the shower and then bursting into tears, Tom masturbating with a flashback to his rehab in the VA and a funny conversation with a physical therapist about prostate health. Tom and Jamie having sex the first time, of course, because how do you do that with Tom’s prosthetic legs, you can’t just leave out the technical obstacle to their lovemaking. I condensed two or more scenes of that into one, and cut away once the real fuckin’ begins.

And as far as anything rough/kinky goes, I managed to condense that into three lines from the book. Tom and Jamie are about to go to Tom’s family’s house for Thanksgiving, and Tom gives Jamie a tip on how to deal with Patrick, Tom’s dad:

TOM

Oh, and if you call Dad ‘sir,’ that’ll help. He likes that.

JAMIE

Yeah.

(dirty grin)

Runs in the family.

TOM

Damn straight.

And that’s all it takes in film to express everything that’s going on with them sexually, without having to frighten the horses :)

I really loved this line of Ava’s in the novel: “Your problem, hon, is that you turn every simple box of a problem into a Rubik’s Cube. Then you twist it around and around until all the colors are screwed up, and then you look at it say, oh, it’s hopeless, I can’t solve that, it’s too complicated.”

But… it wasn’t working in the movie. First of all, it’s really long. Second of all, I realized that while it’s a great “line” in a book, it’s not something one person says to another. Out it goes!

I had to “externalize” a lot of what I’d done as narrative. For instance, I took lines Jamie said in internal monologue, like “Besides, he thought with morbid humor, how sick does that sound – Jamie, Jackson and Jane? Jackson had come from the Humane Society with his name, and so would Jane. But it would sound to anyone else like he was a crazy cat lady.” And I turned that into Jamie talking to Ava:

AVA

Why couldn’t you adopt her? You know Jackson’s lonely. And don’t say it always ends in tears.

JAMIE

Everything ends in tears. What if they fought? I couldn’t stand to take her back to kitty prison. And how sick does that sound – Jamie, Jackson and Jane? Everyone would think I’m a crazy cat lady.

AVA

So you left her in kitty prison instead.

JAMIE

(drinks and makes a face)

See? You’re driving me to drink.

AVA

Like you need a driver.

Worst of all, just transcribing the book into the script, I could see that Jamie was coming across “flat,” as a character, that a lot of his sympathetic appeal in the book came from his internal monologues, as seen above. But his actual dialogue made him sound, for the most part, like a boring self-pitying drip. So, I had to steal some lines from Ava, and invent some new ones, to give him more dark humor. And to have more of those funny moments to punctuate the seriousness.

I studied the script from Manchester by the Sea for ways to handle the flashbacks I needed to do, and between seeing the movie and reading the script, I realized how effective it was to have those moments.

In Manchester, Lee, the Casey Affleck character, becomes the reluctant guardian of his nephew Patrick after Patrick’s father dies. In one scene, Patrick tells his uncle he’s going to have a girl in his room overnight. There’s a pause, and Lee says, “Am I supposed to tell you to use a condom?” People broke up laughing in the theater, all the more because the main notes of the movie were so serious. I was definitely looking for more of those counterpoints in my screenplay than I had in the novel.

There was a long ending to the book, after the real climax of the book, at Thanksgiving dinner. In that ending, Jamie adopts Jane, his second cat, after all, having failed to adopt her the first time. There’s a lot of back and forth with his new extended family about how the two cats are getting on.

And I realized… no. Thanksgiving is the big finish. That’s the emotional climax and any blah blah after that is just going to rob that of its impact. So I condensed the whole coda to a single scene that recaptures and reflects the very first scenes of the movie – read it for yourself, I won’t spoil it! Simple is better, and in a film, one image, especially when it rounds back to the first one in the movie, is worth… oh, you know.

And to be honest, when choosing my battles on what to keep and what to toss, I had my eye on budgets! At 96/97 pages, that’s about a 100 minute movie. Which costs less to make than a 120 minute movie, but isn’t so short it’s not a “real” feature.

As far as keeping backstory, I was worried both about the screen time it would take, and how it might derail the pace of the story. I realized that Jamie and Daniel’s history, where Jamie falls for wicked Daniel and ends up on drugs and HIV positive, could take the least amount of time. Tom’s got a longer arc of injury and recovery, that needs that screen time, but He Done Him Wrong is the same story every time, right? In four minutes, it’s all done, from the moment happy, innocent Jamie meets Daniel in a bar to the day he tests positive after losing ten pounds as Daniel’s drug-fuck toy of the month.

I liked using flash scenes for some bits of information, especially for some of the sexy bits, fantasy scenes especially. In the first part of the script, they get the “shock” out of the way of two men kissing, you know?

For instance, when Jamie shows up at CCC for the first time, and he’s alone with Tom in the office…

Jamie’s eyes flick to a desk.

QUICK FLASH

Tom’s arm sweeping everything off the desk, pushing Jamie down on it, climbing on top of him and pinning his wrists to the desk, Jamie’s eyes wide…

BACK TO SCENE

Jamie blinks away the image. He looks at Tom. Tom seems to have had pretty much the same vision. They both look away.

See? It’s shocking and yet it’s over so fast that the audience doesn’t have time to get uncomfortable w/ the gay sexin’ bits, but all the same it busts their cherry so it’s not as shocking when you get to the real thing!

I think the only thing that would have fucked me up would have been if I thought my Prose was Deathless, my Story Perfect. I’ve written a lot in the last 3 ½ years since ALTB, and I can see the flaws in it that I’d fix as a novelist if I was writing it again today. But all I can do now is fix them in the screenplay.

My great downfall as a selfpub writer was writing for myself, with the arrogant certainty that “I do not have to write alpha pack shifters if that’s what’s selling! I can write Werewolves of Brooklyn and the world will come clamoring and buy my book instead!”

Yeah, about that. That’s why I have $1.50 in savings now. This time, I knew I had to tell my story, but I couldn’t just tell it my way. Not only because, I realized, “they” wouldn’t buy it but because… it didn’t work “my way.” I found that the framework of screenwriting forced me to see the flaws in my story, made me refocus on the key elements.

One thing I read about adaptation really stuck with me. When Alfred Hitchcock would adapt a novel to the screen, he would read it once. And never look at the book again. He thought that if he couldn’t recall a scene from the book, it didn’t belong in the movie.

Another writer, David Trottier in his Screenwriter’s Bible, said that when adapting, you pick 5-10 scenes in the book that are the most powerful, and those are the core of your screenplay. The rest is croutons (he didn’t say that).

And okay, even though I took a lot of “emotional editorializing” out of the Action lines, there were places I couldn’t help but leave it in. After Jamie can’t adopt in the first scene, I had “He’s a bad person,” or “He knows it’ll end in tears,” etc. Those aren’t action line stuff. So out they went, and good riddance.

But there was one place I just had to leave my little mark. When Daniel’s abandoned Jamie for a new twink, Jamie’s still chasing him, frantically calling him.

JAMIE

Daniel? I’ve been calling you for days. Just call me, okay? Or text me so I know you’re okay.

The Daniels of the world are always okay.

But, other than a veiled swipe at “Trump Privatizes VA” as a headline Jamie would be reading by the time someone read the script, I took myself out of the story, as much as it hurt to do it as a novelist who’s always weighing in on his characters and their world!

Well, that’s a lot of technical stuff about the script. The one thing that astonished me the most is that this story still makes me burst into tears, which very few things can do. I burst into tears when I wrote it, and then went through the whole catharsis again when I did the audiobook (the sound of Patrick’s tears at the Thanksgiving dinner table are not me “acting”), and again now with the screenplay.

Am I Crazy? Am I the only one who’s going to blubber at this story? I hope not. But you never really know with your own story, how it looks to someone else, from a distance. Let’s hope it doesn’t look that much different.

Again, you can help me get to the next level with this screenplay by donating to my Kickstarter here! It’s an all or nothing affair, so if I don’t get to $2,000 in pledges, I get $0. Also, you can cut to the chase and read the screenplay for yourself here. This money will help me pay for development costs like script hosting, evaluations, and a script pitching conference in LA in late June. The goal right now is to get this script saleable, get it in front of as many eyes as possible, and get ready for the next phase – world domination! I mean, making an actual movie!

I’ve always donated 50% of the ebook/audiobook proceeds to veterans’ organizations, and in addition, I’ll be donating 10% of any income I might make from selling book rights, script option, script sale, profit points, whatever. So please help me make this happen, and thanks for reading!